The Introduction

Introduction of a Serial Killer

Disclaimer

I've never done anything like this before so forgive me if my posts sound a bit erratic at times. I'll do my best to keep everyone up-to-date with my daily activities, but I must warn you - I do not want to be caught yet so it's probably best that some details are left unspoken.

Self-preservation is key here. I cannot continue writing about my extracurricular activities if I'm in prison and I can't fulfill my life's work either, but I promise to provide as much information as possible without giving away the farm.

Who and What are you?

Well, for obvious reasons, I won't tell you who I am. But what I am, in its simplest form, is a serial killer. I don't really like that term because I don't fit into the mold of normal serial killers. 

What you know about serial killers will likely come into question after following me because, well, I actually do have a conscience. I feel remorse and guilt for what I do. So, I'd rather not call myself a serial killer. You can call me whatever you'd like, but I don't fit into normal 'serial killer' patterns, but I will live with that terminology because it's what everyone will call me when I'm caught. 

Why do You Kill?

Pleasure. It really is that simple. My dick gets hard when I see someone struggling to maintain animation. The fear in a person's eyes when they know they're about to die is a very gratifying experience for me. 

I find it very satisfying to know that I can completely dominate another human being and control whether they live or die. To be fair, there are several people that I would've let live if not for the fact that I know I'd be caught. That means self-preservation comes before any sense of morality. 

Could I do what I do without actually killing people? Yes, I believe that I could fulfill my need for suffering without actually killing someone, but because I'd go to prison for the various crimes committed while filling my needs I choose to kill them. 

Death is never the goal. It is simply a byproduct of my need to cause suffering while maintaining my freedom and humanity. 

I'm sure some of you will scoff at my use of the word humanity when accompanied by my need to cause suffering in another person, but it's true. 

A lot of people enjoy the same things I enjoy, especially women. I haven't met a woman that didn't want to be dominated. I'm sure there are some out there, but I've never met them. They like having their hair pulled or they like being choked to the point of becoming unconscious. Many of them even enjoy the risk of death when it's accompanied by an orgasm. Perhaps it's built into the nature of women, I don't know, but what I do know is the best orgasms a woman will have is when she's on the brink of death and being dominated by someone like me. 

My Formative Years

I've learned over the years that women want to be dominated, so I learned how to dominate. I then realize that women enjoy the fantasy of rape, though most of them are afraid of actual rape. So I then learned to rape with boundaries. 

I enjoy preying upon women who are unable to orgasm, or so they believe. Other men are unable to get these women off because those women crave something more. It's almost as if they need the domination factor to produce an orgasm. 

Well, as with everything else, I've adapted and have learned to produce an actual rape while convincing the women they were participating in it. This allows me to please women who could never otherwise orgasm. 

My first kill was based on this premise, actually. It was quite risky because I used the internet to find this person. She was a single mother, struggling to make ends meet, yada yada. But she made a statement in a Craigslist posting (this was before CL shut down their personals) that she didn't want to talk about sex with her potential boyfriend because he wouldn't be able to get her off anyway. 

Challenge accepted, I thought after I read that. 

Good God was she ever right. I don't think she actually came, though I definitely could feel the inside of her pussy puff up like a balloon, which is a sign of intense stimulation. So even if she didn't actually cum, she definitely enjoyed it. 

But, because the rape was so realistic and I was being so rough with her, I accidentally killed her. I had created a makeshift ligature out of a guitar string and padded handles. I had criss-crossed it around her neck and was surprised by how hard I had to pull on the ends. The string was too long so I wrapped it around again and I think that's why she died. 

Maybe in my excitement I didn't realize I had actually crushed her windpipe, but I had her bent over a fallen log. I was pulling outwards with the string while I filled her from behind. Maybe if I had came sooner she'd still be alive. 

It freaked me out at first, because I came inside of her, quite violently, actually. But when I pulled out and released tension on the guitar string, she kept making this gurgling noise and started shaking pretty violently. 

God my heart was pounding and while watching her struggle for air, my dick got hard again. Usually I'm one and done, but her struggle was so hot that I became extremely aroused again. 

I didn't fuck her again because I was worried about the fact that this woman was dying in front of me and all I could think about was going to jail. 

It was cold as fuck outside and there was really no foliage for cover, but I also hadn't planned on killing her so I was pretty much freaking out. If not for the situation, it would've been comical watching me hopping back and forth over that old, dirty log, rock-hard dick, but-ass naked. 

It felt like forever until she stopped shaking. That gurgling sound is what made my dick hard, I think. Once she stopped gurgling and gasping for air, I lost my erection. 

I won't bore you with the details of how I got rid of her body, but maybe some day I'll tell you. You have to ask nicely though. 

So yeah, that was my first kill. I've killed thirteen other women since then. My goal is to kill at least 94 women before I'm either caught or dead. 94 is the magic number because I want to beat Sam Little. I know he isn't the most prolific ever, but he is the most prolific in the US. 

I'll leave it here for now. This is my introduction page but I plan to write quite a bit more. It won't all be about my kills, so if you're interested in listening to the rantings of what society might deem a lunatic, then stick around and you'll get plenty of that.